Fist in Glove

If you’ve had children you may remember trying to put woolly mittens on them for the first time. Typically, you put them on, but they form a fist. And so there is the hand in the glove, but there are no fingers in the fingers. So you take the glove off, open up the little hand, and slide the glove over, holding the hand flat, so the fist doesn’t clench again until the glove is fully on.

Now imagine that the fist you are trying to open is clenched really tight. You go to prise open the hand, but you can’t, or at least not without hurting the child, so you slip the glove over anyway. Again, a normal looking glove, but no fingers in the fingers.

This is another analogy of Aspergers: you look perfectly normal on the outside, but when people get to know you, they realise there’s something not quite right, something missing. But when do babies clench their fists so you can’t open them? When they are anxious, fearful or, in particular, traumatised. It’s a kind of reflex reaction. It frequently a feature of Aspergers that the person is very anxious, but for no obvious reason. It is also known that if a young child is traumatised they can become autistic; their normal social development slows to a crawl. Sometimes, of course, autistic people seem completely calm and placid, but often what is going on underneath is hidden due to lack of expression. The person appears calm but behaves strangely.

So, perhaps one of the key causes of autism is trauma (except physical brain damage, which is a form of trauma anyway): a reflex reaction to something that the person’s spirit can’t cope with. Does this fit? People who are traumatised can go blank and shut part of themselves off as a means of coping. A split personality can develop, and a whole side to someone may hardly ever surface afterwards. Hence, you can imagine autism developing if a child is traumatised when very young. It makes sense also, that if a mother is traumatised with a baby in the womb, then the baby may also be traumatised and become autistic. But what if there is no obvious trauma to mother or baby, but it just seems to run in the family? I fall into that category. Was I traumatised by the mere process or conception or incarnation? When my spirit entered the newly fertilised egg, was I traumatised at that point, and if so why me and not everyone else?

It is understood that babies are very spiritually aware, and we tend to lose that spiritual sensitivity as we get older. It makes sense, if you think about it. When we are born, we quickly learn some of the basics, like recognising a smile, but the subtleties of body language are learnt later. Yet a baby can sense mood and react accordingly, and this would appear not to be related to the interpretation of non-verbal communication. Similarly, this will be true of the baby in the womb, and all the more so. So, by extrapolation, the newly formed person on conception will only sense things spiritually. But what if there is some particularly insidious curse hanging over his family and now him (or her)? Will the person’s spirit sense that and recoil inside right from conception?

The next bit is pretty gory, but unfortunately things don’t happen without cause. There are blood oaths that people take if they are part of certain secretive societies, which contain vows that hang like a sword over them and their descendants, threatening them if they break those vows. Here’s one of the curses for breaking such an oath:

…having my head cut off, and my brains taken out and burnt to ashes…

or another:

…the skull top struck off and the brain exposed to the scorching rays of the noonday sun…

or even this (spoken whilst holding the skull of a dead person):

As the sins of the world were laid upon the head of the Saviour, so may all the sins committed by the person whose skull this was, be heaped upon my head, in addition to my own, should I ever, knowingly or wilfully, violate or transgress any obligation that I have heretofore taken. So help me God.

And there are loads more where those came from. The Royal Arch Degree of Freemasonry has a lot to answer for. Yet the people who enter into these things as an apprentice have no idea about this side of things, and just go in with the intention of bettering themselves or society.

Another point to note: the first two curses relate to the brain, so if these curses are passed down to a generation not involved in Freemasonry, then the expected outcomes would be mental problems.

This is why renouncing the vows and curses of Freemasonry is what triggered my being healed.

I do suspect, though, that if trauma is a significant factor in the cause of autism, it is probably not the whole story.